jordisondoll

Well, it been awhile.  One of my dear fiends was killed last Thursday night.  Yesterday was his funeral.  I will miss him so much.  He was like an older brother to me.  Lets just say that it sucks.  I hope they find the guy that killed him.  He was hit by a car across the street from his Mom's house.   There was about a mile and a half for cars driving to the cemetery yesterday.  He was the only guy that who could never met a stranger.  Mr. Justin Laxsen ... I will also miss you.  Take care of all those who loved you.

To me. i am now 21. i had a surprise party on saturday in which none of my friends from high school showed up but thats cool. some of me family and my friends ive known for a long time were there it was pretty sweet. but yeah. im 21 yay me

Things havent been the best for me this month. i lost my grandpa a week ago. wednesday was his funeral. my family had christmas with him early. im not looking forward to christmas at all. i really wish he didnt have to go. it still hurts, the pain, he didnt even remember me by the end of his days. i had to face my fears and it still hurts. it hurts to cry, but thats all i can do. all i need is time, anad time isnt what i want.